Saturday, February 6, 2010
He is also looking into the original loan papers. They state that I have a well and 2 septic tanks on the property. We actually were on my brothers well next door and we have One septic tank not two since we found out we don't own the original land my single wide used to sit on. So that makes the loan note null and void really. It also states that the property is not in a flood zone. The lawyer is looking into this too as we were charged for it and forced into foreclosure over this years ago.
Just one big mess!!!
I truly just wanna go home!!! I keep wondering, "G-d, just how much longer will it be before we can have a home again"? I try to hide my tears... I don't wanna tell my friends, as I don't want sympathy.. and I don't cry to my family cause I don't wanna make them feel bad cause I feel so bad.... I feel so alone sometimes..... like G-d has left me here. Where is his voice? I used to hear him so well..... but he's not saying anything and nothing is happening now. I still have faith and hopes.... but my dreams are slowly dieing. I can only see bad right now... cause we've been handed it so frequently in the past few years :(
If for some reason someone is reading this and they will pray... "Please pray for us to be able to get the house fixed soon so we can go home". I was gonna put in for the "Extreme Home Makeover"..... but I got to thinking about the question. "What do you do for your community"? Most stories are based on this question. We make "In Memory" decals for people who have lost a family member. We do these for the mom and dad normally cause if you do it for each family member it starts to really cost as word gets around. I wish we could do it for them all!!! We have also given banners to support different things in the community like fund raisers for other people who were in need who had friends that did a benefit for them. So it seems so small what we do..... like we haven't given enough! I could keep on naming other things.... but it's not like I am a nurse, or a public school teacher. I am a teacher to my own kids..... and someday I do wish I could teach other kids to sew. I love it when a child reaches out to learn to make something. I am in hopes my daughter through our Home Ec. class will have the desire to sew :) Keeping my fingers crossed.
I guess I could tell them about my first real quilt...... that I donated it to the Ronald McDonald House. I wish I had a long arm machine and a nice quilt studio. I'd be so content to get up each day to make quilts to give away to charities. What a life that would be.